Crisis of faith……


“And Moses said, “The people whom I am among are six hundred thousand men on foot;

yet You have said, ‘I will give them meat, that they may eat for a whole month.

 

Shall flocks and herds be slaughtered for them, to provide enough for them? Or shall all the fish of the

sea be gathered together for them, to provide enough for them?

 

And the Lord said to Moses, “Has the Lord’s arm been shortened?

Now you shall see whether what I say will happen to you or not.”

Numbers 11:21-23

 

“And the Lord said to Moses, “Has the Lord’s arm been shortened?”

 

What are you trusting God for today? Are you moving forward in faith

or are you in doubt?

Things have been crazy in my country at the moment. There have been fuel shortages and an increase of

prices on commodities. I remember going to the shops and looking at the prices and

getting a bit fearful. Memories of 2008 came flooding in! It’s happening again I thought.

But after getting home I got into my word and reminded myself of God’s promises of protection,

provision and favor in the situation I find myself.

I could talk about how bad things are in my country but it’s happening every where!

The systems of the world are crumbling and falling apart.

Everything is decaying and degrading.

Everything is corroding and falling to pieces.

But that doesn’t mean I should stop trusting YAH to accomplish everything He promised me.

His blessings and faithfulness are not dependent on what’s happening around me.

No matter how crazy things are He is asking me the same thing He asked Moses,

No matter how hard things are in your life at the moment He is also asking you the same

thing,

 

“The Lord said to Moses, Has the Lord’s hand (His ability and power) become short

(thwarted and inadequate)?”

 

Moses had a crisis of faith when YAH said He would feed the people meat

for a whole month. He simply couldn’t fathom how He would do it but YAH

knew what He would do. Moses would never have guessed how it would happen

and we need to realize that we can’t even begin to fathom His greatness.

In the midst of impossible odds He will make a way for you.

The truth is this,

 

His hand is not too short!

 

He can and will help you and answer your prayer no matter how impossible

it seems. No matter how crazy the circumstances around you seem He will

save you, He will deliver you. His hand is not too short!

Don’t be afraid to pray those bold prayers of healing, breakthrough,

restoration and the list goes on. Don’t hold back.

Trust Him because He will make a way for you!

His hand is not too short….ever!

 

Blessings to you friends

 

Rolain

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Why my understanding of God’s greatness is compromised…..


“Then Elisha said, “hear the word of the Lord. Thus says

the Lord: Tomorrow about this time a seah of fine flour

shall be sold for a shekel, and two seahs of barley for a

shekel, at the gate of Samaria.

So an officer on whose hand the king leaned answered

the man of God and said, “Look, if the Lord would make

windows in heaven, could this thing be?

And he said, “In fact, you shall see it with your eyes, but

you shall not eat of it.”

2 Kings 7:1, 2

 

Elisha spoke these words when Samaria was under seige by

Benhadad of Syria. There was no sign of rescue on the

horizon. They were trapped. But the man of God had a

word from the Lord. In the most impossible of

circumstances the Lord told them they would be set free!

 

We know God is the God who does big things but do we know

what that looks like in our lives?

It’s okay if we don’t see how that unravels in our lives. For too

long we have tried to envision what big looks like but it’s

impossible. We have calculated and made assumptions but we

have come up short.

 

Like Isaiah rightly states,

 

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways

My ways, says the Lord.

For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways

higher than your ways,

and My thoughts than your thoughts. “

Isaiah 55: 8, 9

 

I have come to an understanding that I will never comprehend

what “big” and “great” really are but it’s okay. God has called

me to trust Him. I must understand we are not on the same

playing field. The things He does are so much greater than I

can ever imagine but that is why He is God!

That is why I worship Him and praise Him.

 

My goal in this post is to make you understand that

you will never get to a place where you understand what

“big” or “great things” mean. We hinder our progress when

we try to quantify what “big” is. We try and reason it out

in our minds which is a mistake. God is big and that’s that!

 

Let me explain where all this came from. I am trusting

God to go to Israel this year but things haven’t really

worked out for me financially. My back is against the

wall so to speak. I tried thinking about how I would

raise the money I needed but nothing came to mind. How

on earth could God make it possible for me to go but that’s where

I have made the mistake. I believe I am supposed to go

to Israel but my job is not to figure out the how.

My job is to trust. As I trust in the Lord He will come through

for me. If there is something I need to be doing He will reveal that.

But my job is never to figure out the “how”.

It’s to have faith and step out!

 

 

Yes, I don’t have the money but God will make a way.

In fact there are so many places I want to travel to and so

many things I want to do that are beyond what I am getting

paid but my paycheck is not my source, God is! He

will make a way if I trust Him. I can’t rely on my own

understanding. I can’t rely on my definition of what “big”

is…….. I don’t know what the true

defintion of “big” is, so I need to stop pretending I know.

My definition is limiting what God can do because my

understanding is incomplete and will always be…..!

 

The officer didn’t partake of God’s deliverance because

he didn’t think God was big enough. His understanding of God

hindered him from experiencing God’s power!

My understanding of “big” has been compromised by so many

things. One of those things is flesh. I am human, I am not perfect!

The world is constantly trying to get me to stop trusting in God.

It wants me to trust in other things besides God. I am being

conditioned to see first before believing. Aren’t we all?

I am conditioned to trust in my own strength. I am my own

answer I am taught but is that true? Is that what God says?

The government want me to put my trust in them. The world

has rejected God totally! And that’s the fight I find myself in. Do I

go against the norm and trust God?

In sickness, do I trust for healing? yes

When I have fallen, do I believe God will pick me up? yes

When the world writes me off as a nobody do I trust God

to do something great with my life? yes

I need to stop relying on my own understanding.

 

 

“You shall eat, not one day, nor five days, nor ten days, nor

twenty days, but for a whole month, until it comes out of your

nostrils and becomes loathsome to you, because you despised

the Lord who is among you, and have wept before Him, saying,

“Why did we ever come out of Egypt?

And Moses said, The people whom I am among are six hundred

thousand men on foot; yet You have said, I will give them meat,

that they may eat for a whole month.

Shall flocks and herds be slaughtered for them, to provide enough

for them? Or shall all the fish of the sea be gathered together for

them, to provide enough for them?

And the Lord said to Moses, “Has the Lord’s arm been shortened?

Now you shall see whether what I say will happen to you or not.”

Numbers 11:19-23

 

Moses struggled to grasp how big God was and is. Moses had

seen God do some pretty incredible things. One would think he

would know how big God was. But according to the scripture I just

shared even his perception of “big” was still small. He couldn’t

comprehend the great things God could do and God understood.

He didn’t stike Moses down because he didn’t believe. He told

him to watch and see!

 

So to conclude, what am I saying?

 

We must understand that God is big but also understand we

don’t know what that really means and that’s okay.

We must be content in the fact that God is big!

So if you are trusting God for something big, outrageous, and

out of this world don’t give up because that thing is small to God!

He has bigger things in store for you and you don’t have to

exhaust yourself trying to comprehend how!!!.

Don’t let your paycheck determine what you can have.

You don’t have to let the economy determine how big you can

dream because the God we serve is crazy big!!!

 

And finally I would like to ask for your help. I want to go to

Israel so any kind of donations would help. If you feel comeplled

to give something towards my trip please email me and I will tell

you how to go about it. I believe God

will make a way for me to go as I step out in faith. He is really

really really big!

 

Here is my email,

rolain.errol377@gmail.com

 

Don’t let anyone or anything tell you what you can or can’t

have. God created the heavens and the earth and He is your

Father. He wants to bless you. Pursue what God has put in your

heart wholeheartedly! Trust Him to provide what you need.

He has great things in store for you. Amen!!   🙂

 

Rolain

 

photo credit: google images

 

 

 

 

 

 

This life we live as Christians…..


I was thinking about this life we live as Christians and the God

we serve.

It is a truly amazing journey we are on. Think with me on what it

means to serve the Lord God Almighty!

On this journey we are on:

God calls us to trust Him completely! Not when it makes sense or

when the conditions are right, no! In every situation He says, trust Me!

 

While he was still speaking to her, a messenger arrived from the home of Jairus, the leader of the synagogue. He told him, “Your daughter is dead. There’s no use troubling the Teacher now.” But when Jesus heard what had happened, he said to Jairus, “Don’t be afraid. Just have faith, and she will be healed.” (‭Luke‬ ‭8‬:‭49-50‬ NLT)

 

We serve a God who calls us to jump out of boats to walk on water!

He does that so He can increase our faith! Peter had to learn a lesson

on faith that he could only learn by stepping out of the boat!

 

Then Peter called to him, “Lord, if it’s really you, tell me to come to you, walking on the water.” “Yes, come,” Jesus said. So Peter went over the side of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus. But when he saw the strong wind and the waves, he was terrified and began to sink. “Save me, Lord!” he shouted. Jesus immediately reached out and grabbed him. “You have so little faith,” Jesus said. “Why did you doubt me?” (‭Matthew‬ ‭14‬:‭28-31‬ NLT)

 

We serve a God who confronts us about the fears we have!

And suddenly, behold, there arose a violent storm on the sea, so that the boat was being covered up by the waves; but He was sleeping. And they went and awakened Him, saying, Lord, rescue and preserve us! We are perishing! And He said to them, Why are you timid and afraid, O you of little faith? Then He got up and rebuked the winds and the sea, and there was a great and wonderful calm (a perfect peaceableness). (‭Matthew‬ ‭8‬:‭24-26‬ AMP)

Why did He confront them about their fears? He did it because He

wanted them to realise He was bigger than any fear they ever had.

And that’s the truth, God wants you to know He is bigger than any

and every fear you have and will ever have…..

 

We serve a God who has great and amazing plans for us even if it

seems impossible!

 

And the angel said to her, Do not be afraid, Mary, for you have found grace (free, spontaneous, absolute favor and loving-kindness) with God. And listen! You will become pregnant and will give birth to a Son, and you shall call His name Jesus. He will be great (eminent) and will be called the Son of the Most High; and the Lord God will give to Him the throne of His forefather David, And He will reign over the house of Jacob throughout the ages; and of His reign there will be no end. [Isa. 9:6, 7; Dan. 2:44.] And Mary said to the angel, How can this be, since I have no [intimacy with any man as a] husband? (‭Luke‬ ‭1‬:‭30-34‬ AMP)

For with God nothing is ever impossible and no word from God shall be without power or impossible of fulfillment. Then Mary said, Behold, I am the handmaiden of the Lord; let it be done to me according to what you have said. And the angel left her. (‭Luke‬ ‭1‬:‭37-38‬ AMP)

God’s plan for Mary was impossible in the natural but she still

believed God!

Like Mary we are to believe God no matter how outrageous it seems

in the natural. He has a great and amazing destiny for each of us!

We just need to trust Him!

We serve a God who calls the least qualified.

Now the Angel of the Lord came and sat under the oak (terebinth) at Ophrah, which belonged to Joash the Abiezrite, and his son Gideon was beating wheat in the winepress to hide it from the Midianites. And the Angel of the Lord appeared to him and said to him, The Lord is with you, you mighty man of [fearless] courage. (‭Judges‬ ‭6‬:‭11-12‬ AMP)

Gideon said to Him, Oh Lord, how can I deliver Israel? Behold, my clan is the poorest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my father’s house. The Lord said to him, Surely I will be with you, and you shall smite the Midianites as one man. (‭Judges‬ ‭6‬:‭15-16‬ AMP)

 

Gideon didn’t see himself as much because his family was poor

but God saw someone He could use. Gideon may have been looked

down upon by his community because his family was poor but God

had a plan for him! God can and will use anyone! Gideon’s story

reminds me of one other hero who God used mightily.

But Moses protested, “If I go to the people of Israel and tell them, ‘The God of your ancestors has sent me to you,’ they will ask me, ‘What is his name?’ Then what should I tell them?” (‭Exodus‬ ‭3‬:‭13‬ NLT)

But Moses protested, “If I go to the people of Israel and tell them, ‘The God of your ancestors has sent me to you,’ they will ask me, ‘What is his name?’ Then what should I tell them?” God replied to Moses, “ I AM WHO I AM. Say this to the people of Israel: I AM has sent me to you.” (‭Exodus‬ ‭3‬:‭13-14‬ NLT)

But Moses protested again, “What if they won’t believe me or listen to me? What if they say, ‘The LORD never appeared to you’?” (‭Exodus‬ ‭4‬:‭1‬ NLT)

But Moses pleaded with the LORD, “O Lord, I’m not very good with words. I never have been, and I’m not now, even though you have spoken to me. I get tongue-tied, and my words get tangled.” (‭Exodus‬ ‭4‬:‭10‬ NLT)

But Moses again pleaded, “Lord, please! Send anyone else.” (‭Exodus‬ ‭4‬:‭13‬ NLT)
Let me say this, whoever you are, no matter what you have been

through, whateveryou think you are lacking know this, GOD HAS A

PLAN FOR YOU!

He will not rest until you are walking in the purpose He has for you!
This is the God we serve! He is so good!

As you can see, God does a lot of amazing things

for us….It’s not easy at times but the

reason He does all He does is because He is good and because He

loves us!

Rolain

God has a plan for you but when does it start…..???


 

I was thinking about destiny today. When did Israel start walking in what God called them to do?

Was it in Egypt or maybe in the desert? It must have definitely started when they got to the land of milk and honey! That is what I thought for a long time. Everyone has a land of milk and honey to get to. That is our destiny right?

When did Moses start walking in what God called him to do? Was it when he was growing up in Pharaoh’s palace or was it when he was living in the desert with Jethro? It must of being when he went back to Egypt and God used him to deliver the Israelites!! It must of being when the Israelites got to the promise land and crossed it….that must be it!

From these two scenarios we see the dilemma of destiny. When did God’s plan for these and more people start?

To answer that question I will have to tell you about my week. My week was sort of ok (whatever that means) but I was thinking to myself how I would love it when things start happening concerning my destiny. I was looking forward to that day. That day when I am doing all God has called me to do. It would be glorious I thought but I was wrong because another thought came to mind. Maybe it was God maybe it was just me but what came to mind as I was thinking all this was, YOU ARE ALREADY LIVING YOUR DESTINY!!

Moses destiny started before he was even born. Everything that happened to Israel prior to Moses being born happened in a way that God could use him specifically. God had a plan for Moses a long time before he was born and that plan started back then! It did not start when he was born.

 

 

“Then Joseph died and all his brothers-that whole generation. But the children of Israel kept on reproducing. A new king came to power in Egypt who didn’t know Joseph. He spoke to his people in alarm. There are too many of these Israelites for us to handle.  Exodus 1: 6-8 

When we get to the book of Exodus and read these scriptures we get excited because we know Moses was about  to be introduced. The Israelites did not see it like that though. Life was hard, extremely hard and they had no idea God was about to perform a miracle. The way we know what Moses was going to do before his story starts is the same way our lives are. You may think life is hard and difficult and challenging and impossible with no hope of rescue but know that God has a plan. You are living in the path He has set out for you. You are walking in your destiny now! Be patient, trust and you will see what He will do.

Another scripture to read is Genesis 15: 12-15:

Then the LORD said:

Abram, you will live to an old age and die in peace. 

But I solemnly promise that your descendants will live as foreigners in a land that doesn’t belong to them. They will be forced into slavery for 400 years. 

But I will terribly punish the nation that enslaves them, and they will leave with many possessions. 

In that scripture we see a part of God’s plan for Moses! God was talking about him to Abraham!! God didn’t mention his name but that’s who He was thinking about. He knew about the slavery and knew about the deliverance. He knew He would call Moses and Aaron to carry out His plan! Isn’t that amazing?? And that was far back as Abram!!!!

 

So what does all this mean? As I was discouraged about the season I was in now I realized I was already living my destiny. Yes it’s hard and yes it’s difficult and yes it’s confusing but I am living in my destiny now. The pain, and difficulty, and confusion is part of my destiny. My destiny does not start when I get to the land of milk and honey but it started in Egypt! When I was in the wilderness I was walking in what God had planned for me. Before I was born His plan for my life was activated. And that goes for you to. You may be going through hard times but know you are walking in God’s plan for you.

Joseph may have hated being sold into slavery by his brothers and he may have thought he had no destiny but he was wrong. When his brothers sold him into slavery he was in God’s plan. Through all the hard and testing times he went through he was living out what God called him to. His destiny had been activated a long time ago! It didn’t seem like it but that was the reality!

I was filled with hope when I got this realization. I may be going through hard times now but I am living in my destiny now. The hard times complete the picture. I hope that all makes sense. God has a plan for you and it started a long long time ago. What you are going through now is not in vain. God sees and He has a plan for you. Trust Him…..

 

Rolain

Scars of Loss.


If we are to experience God’s best there is a price to pay. This was so clear to me as I was reading Bob Sorge’s book on prayer. Are you prepared to pay the price, because there is a price?
The enemy has come and taken things, he has come and plundered our stuff but there will be restitution. He will pay for all he has done but there is a price.
I have been deeply challenged by the words I have read. This is what he had to say:

There is a steep price to pay if we are to experience restitution.
What does qualifying for restitution mean?
And even though there is restitution, the reality of the actual loss is a scar that marks us forever.

Take, for starters, Job.

The indelible mark left upon Job because of the loss of his first set of ten children. Yes, he was changed, healed, restored, and given a second set of children. But nothing could erase the fact that he had lost his first children. They were gone forever, and their absence represented a hole in his heart that nothing could fill. This left an eternal scar on Job’s soul“.

And the Lord turned the captivity of Job and restored his fortunes, when he prayed for his friends; also the Lord gave Job twice as much as he had before.  Job 41:10
We read Job’s story with no clue at the cost he had to pay for restitution. He lost his kids. All his kids. It didn’t mean just because God blessed him with more kids he forgot about the pain and the tragedy of losing his first ten kids. On the contrary the pain of losing his children would forever be with him.

–  Paul is another example of this. Paul was a mighty man of God who God delivered. At the end of his life Paul testifies of God’s faithfulness by saying,

I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.
2 Timothy 4:7

Paul faced impossible opposition! It was not an easy road. For Paul to say what he said, had such a weight and significance. He didn’t just leisurely get there. He nearly died and was actually prepared to die for Christ. His deliverance and glory came at a huge cost. Consider this:

2 Corinthians 11:23-30

23 Are they ministers of Christ? (I speak as a fool) I am more; in labors more abundant, in stripes above measure, in prisons more frequent, in deaths oft.

24 Of the Jews five times received I forty stripes save one.

25 Thrice was I beaten with rods, once was I stoned, thrice I suffered shipwreck, a night and a day I have been in the deep;

26 In journeying’s often, in perils of waters, in perils of robbers, in perils by mine own countrymen, in perils by the heathen, in perils in the city, in perils in the wilderness, in perils in the sea, in perils among false brethren;

27 In weariness and painfulness, in watchings often, in hunger and thirst, in fastings often, in cold and nakedness.

28 Beside those things that are without, that which cometh upon me daily, the care of all the churches.

29 Who is weak, and I am not weak? who is offended, and I burn not?

As you can see, Paul suffered a lot.

The last person I would like to point out from the book is Naomi. The author says:

Naomi was comforted with Obed’s death, but she never got her husband and two sons back.
Ruth 4:17-22

We like happy endings but we need to realize like Job Naomi lost her family!
She was happy that she had a grandson but the fact remains, she lost her family and she had to live with that truth everyday of her life! She paid a huge price.

What I would like you to see through all of this is, what you have gone through, what you going through is not all for nothing! It is for a testimony! I would like you to start seeing your scars differently. Your scars are a reminder of what happened to you but they are also a testimony of God’s faithfulness. Let me give you one last practical example of what I mean.
I was abused as a child. My dad was a violent man and a drinker. I lived most of my childhood in fear then in shame and insecurity. I was abused physically and verbally. I have scars to prove it. Today, I can look at those scars and hate my dad but I don’t. I look at those scars and they remind me of how God saved me! I have come a long way because of God! The scars are a testimony of God’s faithfulness, do you understand? Look at Jesus, His nails bare the mark of what He paid on the cross. It is a reminder to us of how much He loved us. His scars are a testimony!

The author goes on to say, The point is: The losses are real, and the scars eternal. And yet, the suffering is worth it because of the glory which is revealed in us.

And I will stop there. God is so good. I hope you will look at your scars differently. There is a price to pay to experience God’s restitution.

Rolain

The Problem With Mission Impossible!


Throughout our life God will ask us to do things that seem beyond our reach, crazy, to big for us to handle, in other words impossible. But what are we to do in those times? Where do we start?
There seems to be a battle that rages in us when we know what we are called to do. But those times are what will determine if you succeed or not.

Look at Israel for instance. They were at the door of the promise land. They sent out 12 spies to go and spy the land. Please keep in mind the fact that they were right by the door of what God promised them.
It says the spies went out to spy out the land and when they came back they brought fruit as evidence that they were surely close to the land of milk and honey!
Ten of the spies begin to give the people the facts! The people over there are giants, their walls are impenetrable, we have no chance and so on and so on. The spies did not tell the people lies. The facts were true. This was surely a mission impossible!! But God is not interested in facts but faith! You may be in debt or you may be sick or lonely but He wants faith. One problem with mission impossible is we tend to rely on what we see and not on what God is seeing for us!

But this is where the problem was, they began to speak negatively. They allowed fear to settle in. They had no chance in the natural and we see that later on when they tried to go and conquer the land on their own! They didn’t count on God. They began to grumble and complain.

God has called us to dream the impossible. Our destiny is so much bigger than us but what are we speaking? Believing is important but speaking what you believe, that is where the power is!

I am reminded of a situation I am going through. It seems so big, so far out there. I would speak myself out of it by saying God made a mistake, I was not the right person and so many other things. On top of that I would listen to the words of close friends who said I don’t have a chance!  I thought I was being humble but it actually was sin. God is the One who qualifies us. He calls us not because we have the qualifications but because of His grace! So I will keep on believing right and speaking right because God is in control. My life is in His hands and He will not let me go.

Be very careful what you think and say when you are confronted with an impossible situation.

This is what I am trying to say to you. Believe God no matter how big your situation is. Believe God no matter how big and impossible the thing He has called you to do is! He wants faith and nothing else.

In Numbers chapters 13 and 14, we see how Israel missed their promise because of what they were saying. They disqualified themselves because of their words.

I found Numbers 14:36 very interesting. It says, So it happened that the men Moses sent to scout out the land returned to circulate false rumors about the land causing the entire community to grumble against Moses-all these men died. Having spread false rumors of the land they died in a plague, confronted by God.

This passage is interesting because the spies told the community the facts. There were giants and they had fortified walls but the bible says they were spreading false rumors! You may think you are being realistic about your calling by talking yourself out of it because you think you are not qualified but it is false. God thinks it is sin. When God calls say YES! Don’t start asking why me?

You have a mission impossible but it is only by trusting in God that you will get through to the other side. Don’t look at your weaknesses and what you don’t have, instead look to God. You will accomplish the calling on your life no matter how impossible it seems when you look to Him.

Rolain