Thoughts and Feelings About 2012.


I have been thinking about this year. It has had good parts and bad and it wouldn’t be fair if I just focused on the good. There are things that I see that I know I could of done better and there are things I should of left well alone. So this post as hard as it is to write is about my failures. I realise that God has given me so much but I shouldn’t take them for granted. I will be accountable for the talents and opportunities I haven’t taken.
I am only going to touch on a few of the failures in the hope that as I read over them over time I avoid making the same mistakes.

The first thing is about the way I see. I have missed some important opportunities because I failed to see. Let me explain what I mean.
The church called for a prayer on the 12/12/12. This was a very significant day but I didn’t go because I had just finished doing a Christmas Production and 3 days of intense teaching. But because I was “tired” I missed out on meeting with God. I missed out on declaring things over my life and my church. I was so convicted. I failed to see that by going I would meet with God. I listened to my flesh and it robbed me of something precious!!!

The other opportunity I missed was when I travelled to Malaysia. I was given some spending money on the last day and instead of using it to pay off my trip I spent it on clothes and the like!!! Again, my flesh got in the way!! I felt so bad. How could I not see that opportunity?! There was an opportunity to put the money towards the trip but instead I used it on myself!!!

I started working at a coffee shop about 3 months ago and I have been lazy to work on my own company! I have seen opportunities and I know I can do both things but I have been lazy. It is crazy….!
The more I write the more I see how I have allowed the flesh to rule me!

I have a mentor and I felt I needed to speak to a certain man to be a mentor in my life. I have been putting it off for some months now. There are so many qualities that I want that I see in him but I have been procrastinating and I have been taught that procrastination is just delayed disobedience! There are times I wonder how God can use me………

The last thing I would like to talk about is sin. I have allowed myself to get comfortable with sin. There are things I am dealing with which came about by my own foolishness!!! How could I be so blind? There are things that I am fighting which I am really not supposed to be struggling with but am because I was just acting the fool………

This year has been a learning one. There are things that need to change. I am not going to have 2012 all over again. 2013 is going to be better and not because I rely on my own strength but because God is for me! Save me from my own craziness Lord.

I am not usually that raw but I needed to vent. If I can’t be transparent with you then what’s the point????
Please remember me in your prayers.
Rolain.

My faith and Your faith – Part 1


I am going to talk about faith. A lot has been taught concerning this subject. I have a plethora of information to extract from. So i ask you not to read this post with the attitude of “i have heard it all” but with one of awe and newness. Like this is the first time you have heard faith from my point of view which in actual fact is true. This IS your first time hearing faith from my point of view. So let us begin.

Faith is something we all have as human beings. Christian and non-christian. It is vital to our survival. We use faith everyday. Let me prove it. How many of us just sit down on a chair without even thinking about it. It would look so foolish if we had to inspect the chair before we sat on it. But instead we have faith that it will support us. How many of us drive through traffic lights without even thinking about it? I know it’s green but who says the next driver will obey the red light? But we have faith that the other motorists will obey. We don’t even think about it when we drive through the traffic lights. Are you starting to see how we use faith everday? Without faith it would be almost imossible to live. Let me give you one more example before i move on. How many times have you jumped onto a plane without freaking out that you going to crash. You have faith that the pilot knows exactly what he is doing. The first time is a bit nerve racking but the more you fly the less you feel unsafe. It’s got to a point where you don’t even think about it. You are confident in the pilot. You have faith in his skill. That is why i say we all have faith as human beings. But what matters is where we use our faith.

A lot us have faith in the wrong things. There is a truth that we going to need to accept. You may not like it but it’s true.
Psalm 119:96 says: I have seen that everything [human] has it’s limits and end [no matter how extensive, noble, and excellent]; but Your commandment is exceedingly broad and extends without limits [into eternity].
What do you have faith in? Be guaranteed that if it has anything to do with man it will fail. Man is not perfect and he is apt to make mistakes. How many times have we heard of planes crashing or collisions of vehicles at traffic lights?
Remember the word, “I have seen everything [human] has its limits and end [no matter how extensive, noble, and excellent];”.
You cannot place your trust in man. He will fail you because he is not perfect. Even though he may think he is perfect he is not. Please get this truth in you. It will save you a lot of problems and heartache.

Please understand, i am not saying that you should not have people around you who can help you. People who can support you and be a shoulder to cry on when you need one. We are designed to need each other. It is foolish to think you don’t need anyone. It is foolish to think that you are a sole unit by yourself. What i am talking about is people who look to other things and people and see no other way. Let me say this as well, there is no man or woman who can fulfill you completely! There is no man or woman who can give you everything you need. You cannot get the all the love that you need from the man or woman you love. You cannot get all the support you need. Man was not designed that way. We were designed to be interdependent. We need each other.

I am nearly finished with my introduction. What i am trying to get you to see is this, our faith needs to be in God. Not just any god but the one and true God, the Lord God Almighty. He is the One we were designed for. He is the One who completes us. He is the One who created us. Our faith make sense when we put it in Him. He has no beginning and no end. He is the Creator of the universe. He can be trusted. He will never leave us.
That is where i am going to end for now. Faith is important. We need to learn where to put our faith. Our faith should be in God and not in man. Everything we need is in Him. Remember, where we put our faith matters. Let us put it in God who made us and who lives forever. Amen.